lo que queda atras

I'm still waiting for an answer... there's a lot of unanswered questions.. a lot of doubts in my head and I can't help but thinking that you might still be cheating on me... or lying, which is worse... And I keep remembering those days when everything used to be good, even if you were pretending, I felt like you loved me...

and lo que queda atras is what makes me hesitate... if you did it once you'll do it twice.. and there's my heart playing the game of love.. if I get hurt again I don't know what I'm going to do... and I have no strong reasons to think you're doing that all over again, and believe me I appreciate everything we've done together and the few things you've done for me... cause I do know how to appreciate the littlest things.

every single people who knows me, knows what's lo que queda atras... and some of them have taken advantage of it, and it hurts like hell cause they're the people I used to care about and the people I used to love... and it's the people that is still turning their back on me all over again. why can't you be happy with other people's happiness??? do we all have to be unhappy just because you are unhappy and you don't know how to love or how to be loved?.

I know I have to leave lo que queda atras behind... but it's hard to do... if only I could forget what they've done.... and most important, what they did...

TE AMO

Para ti... BB

Amo toda tu figura | modelo de lo increible belleza y virtud en una
tu soltura al perdonar no dejas morir a nadie y vas sembrandonos ilusiones
tu no sabes lo que causas | creo que aun no te has dado cuenta
haces que la gente agradezca tu existencia

te amo, mas que a un nuevo mundo, mas que a un dia perfecto
mas que aun suave vino, mas que un largo sueño
mas que a la balada de un niño cantando
mas que a mi musica, mas que a mis años
mas que a mis tristezas, mas que a mis quehaceres
mas que a mis impulsos, mas que a mis placeres
mas que a nuestro juego preferido
mas aun que esto. te amo

Amo toda tu persona, parabola de la vida, poderosa cenicienta
tu destreza para amarnos, no olvidas dolor de nadie y te desvives por alegrarnos
no has notado lo que eres, y me aterra que lo notes
haces que las rosas se peleen por ser tu broche

te amo, mas que a un nuevo mundo | mas que a un dia perfecto
mas que a un suave vino | mas que un largo sueño
mas que a la balada de un niño cantando
mas que a mi musica | mas que a mis años
mas que a mis tristezas | mas que a mis quehaceres
mas que a mis impulsos | mas que a mis placeres
mas que a nuestro juego preferido
mas aun que esto, te amo

mas que a un largo viaje | mas que a un rubio campo
mas que a un viejo amigo | mas que a cualquier santo
mas que a tu pureza adornada de errores
mas que a tu tenacidad que no se rompe
mas que a tu alegria | mas que a tus colores
mas que a tu sensualidad que crees que escondes
mas que a nuestro beso primero
mas aun que esto te amo
mas que a nuestro beso primero
mas aun que esto te amo
mas que a nuestro beso primero
mas aun que esto
te amo mas que a nuestra magica noche de bodas
mas aun que esto te amo
TE AMO

en alta definicion

these have been hectic days. first of all, one of my wildest dreams have come true and that is that I have my HDTV now. OK, yes, it wasn't the one I was expecting to have (I wanted a Full HD screen and instead I had a 720i one).

I've had the chance to watch some shows in HD (national shows to be exact) like Televisa's "Las Tontas No Van Al Cielo" or "Fuego en la Sangre". TV Azteca has a lot more shows in HD like "Venga La Alegria", "Poker de Reinas", "Ventaneando", "Hechos", "Pobre Rico Pobre"... the latter have taken more advantages of HD than Televisa... it sucks cause the Televisa channels have better resolution than TV Azteca ones.

DVDs look a little better than watching them in conventional TV but once you have watched ANYTHING in HD you realize that DVD-quality is waaaaaay lower than a 720i quality (I can't imagine how HD shows look in 1080i resolution). I have watched my DVDs through S-VIDEO cable, tomorrow I'll buy Component cables so maybe it'll improve a lot or that's what it's supposed to be.

:) I still have more to see in my TV but I have shared my excitement a little with you.

hermoso

HOLA! Don't you just LOVE my not-so-new-but-changed layout???. It hasn't changed that much but definitely is good. It's not as saturated as the previous one but it has a beautiful person on it. Ladies and gentlemen, in case you don't know him, he is the marvelous, the gorgeous, the incredible Mr. Pierre Bouvier!!!!. ..... (crickets singing....)

Ok, just to let you know and I'll be back with their new single

triste no creo

May I say that this has been a very hectic week? My dad left last Friday and since then I've been feeling kind of alone... something I've never felt before. My boyfriend's been sick for 7 days now and he is like someone else... he's not who he used to be, sometimes I feel he doesn't want to be with me anymore... let's give it to the sickness. Material things seem to be getting late and I need to get my hands on them. (BTW: I just liked that guy's eyes).

I'M DESPERATE.

when it all goes wrong

it's sad when you want something so bad and it never comes to you. this story happened not so long ago when a guy called ME met another guy called HIM. it was like a year ago I guess. ME saw him in his new school and he liked him, but never got the chance to know his name or so, but finally, as a Christmas gift, ME happened to be in the same class as HIM. even though ME was so shy, he decided to talk to him, and he finally sat next to HIM and took the chance to talk to HIM during an exercise... that was when the friendship began.

ME didn't know he was going to get to know HIM better during that month... stop the bullshit ME is ME and HIM is just someone who I really liked since the very first time I saw him and I don't know if I'm confused or something but he was the only reason I wanted to go to the school the last time I decided not to go anymore... and now I can only sit down and look at his hi5 pictures because I can't see him anymore, he doesn't live here anymore.

and I feel kinda scared because I don't know if I love him or if I'm infatuated or something like that, I can't stop thinking about him, the worst thing of all is that he's straight and I cant erase this feeling... i would've roll the dice and take a big chance on him if he would've proposed it... he was the kind of guy you could give up on everything and go with him if he asks you to.

because he's got such a pure soul... you can see it in his eyes, in the way he smiles, the way he says a joke and how he expects to make you laugh, how spontaneous he is. you can see his culture from the very first time you talk to him and how he is such a prepared man.

he was the man of my dreams... those kind of things that never EVER come true...
if only....

I begin...

I'm a little trouble-minded right now. These have been the hardest 2 months in my life and I can't help but thinkin' how many things I have lost because of my laziness. 2 months without Internet at home made me feel like disconnected but also made me enjoy other things in my life.

Now this is a new age in my life, I'm going to pay my very own internet and of course I'm gonna have to find a good job soon. My heart is also confused... I don't know who I love and I don't exactly know if I love the guy I'm with... Tomorrow I'll tell the story, however, this means I'm back for good... or at least until God lets me be here